Loser

I'm one of those people who wins. The reason for this is not, in fact, that I am amazing. Instead, it's that I always stick to what I'm good at. It's easy to be a winner when you're only doing the things you have a natural talent for.

And so not concieving a baby on the first cycle we tried felt like failure. My sister, mother, sister-in-law, and many others in our families' just got pregnant seemingly immediately. It was naive of me to think we'd be the same. Obviously I know the statistics - a perfectly healthy couple with perfect timing has a 20% chance . . . and yet I'm disappointed. I lost.

I'm well into cycle two at this point, and nearing possible ovulation territory. Maybe this will be our month, and maybe it won't. I'm hoping that whatever happens, I can look at it positively.